Struggling With The Fear Of Change

One of the many journey's I am on right now, is becoming a yoga instructor.  I'm still not sure exactly what I want my career to end up looking like, but I know I want it to be in total body health and wellness.  Yoga is an amazing way to increase your physical strength as well as sharpen your mind and get in tune with your body.  There are so many benefits that could be a post all to itself, which I will get to another time. 1174957_338179452983266_1584931544_n

The close of our first class.  Look at that room full of amazing beginners!

It’s coming to the end of my Yoga Teacher Training and my final is on Saturday!  I can’t believe nine weeks have gone by so very quickly.  This last weekend we had ‘Bring a Beginner Day,’ and I was so happy to have my dad, cousin, boyfriend’s mom, best friend and her fiancé all come to support me! They all did amazing and were so brave to come and give yoga a try.  Needless to say I was terrified about having to teach.  It was the first time my classmates and I had really taught a class other than to each other, and I think we were just as nervous as all the first timers in the room.  We each had to teach a small portion of the class, and it was over before I knew it.  Quick and painless, thankfully!  I lived to tell the tale.  Soon I will be let out into the yoga world and allowed to teach an entire class on my own! I cannot believe it.


My wonderful father, and cousin who came to my first class.

Facing the end of this chapter has brought up many fears.  I started this blog to share with you all, and now it's time for honesty hour.

Even though I am so excited about the new possibilities and the changes I am making, I am also scared out of my mind right now.  I feel like I am jumping off a cliff without looking to see whats under me.  I recently put in my notice at my current job to put my everything into learning and creating this new path, and now the reality of that is truly setting in.  They say you have to take big risks to get big rewards, but risk taking has never really been my strongest attribute.  All kinds of worry are racing through my brain.  What if I can't get a job?  How do I even go about finding a job out in the yoga world? How do I network effectively? Where do I even want all this to go?  How can I weave nutrition, yoga, fitness, travel, cooking, and blogging all into one?  How long will this all take?  How long can I financially survive while I figure this out? I am confident that I am moving in the right direction, but my destination isn't clear yet which makes the changes even more difficult.  Many of my worries are financially based, and so I have to keep reminding myself that money doesn't necessarily mean happiness, and it's not worth hating life to make more money.

 As I reflect back on the last year, or even the last 4 months I cannot believe how life has transpired.  So much has happened, all for the better. I need to keep that in mind and remember to trust the process.  This isn't going to happen over night, but with continued persistence everything will work out.  No matter what changes you are trying to make in life remember to look at your progress and acknowledge how far you have come.  Reflect on and listen to your fears but don't let them stop you.  March ahead with determination towards what you know is right and what will bring you, and those around you, more happiness.


Do you have any advice for me, because I would love to hear from you.  What's the largest risk you have taken in life?  How do you deal with your fears?


PS. A little clarification about my last post.  My boyfriend asked me the other day why I called my recent smoothie recipe, the Kitchen Sink Smoothie, which made me realize not everyone may know what the heck I’m talking about, and if you don't that name sounds pretty weird.  It really is just in reference to the old saying, “Everything but the kitchen sink.”  Essentially that is most of my smoothies, short and sweet just isn’t my style in that area.