After I graduated from my Nutritional Therapy course and got my yoga teacher certification I thought, “Okay, it’s time to buckle down. Get a business together, settle into a home and THEN I can start traveling again if I want.”
First work, then play.
I think that is the mentality a lot of us have.
My partner and I settled into a one bedroom apartment and planned to stay until we decided to purchase our own house, I wanted to actually try to decorate the place for once, I had an office job in my mentors nutritional therapy practice that was the perfect step in the right direction to having my own practice, I began to get clients, I was teaching yoga and trying to get more classes.
In a lot of ways I was trying to put down ‘roots’ so to speak.
It was time to ‘grow up.’ I had done a lot of traveling and it seemed that needed to go to the back burner as I did the responsible things in life.
Well, it didn’t work.
That just isn’t how I want to live, and I don’t think that makes me any less grown up. In fact I think it’s way more grown up for me to be able to admit what I DO want and to go after that despite what I SHOULD do.
My apartment never did get decorated, and as hard as I tried to just be content and to convince myself I was doing the right thing for my career the nagging inside me never left.
Something constantly felt like it was missing from my life. That something was part of me. Part of me had gone missing. A big part of me.
I tried to cut off a piece of myself because it wasn’t what I should do. Society tells you it’s not realistic or right to go traipsing around the world and expect to have a career. You can’t make a living that way, and you darn well won’t be seen as a responsible successful person.
What we grow up believing is that you work hard when you are young so you don’t have to when you are old. So you can retire and just enjoy your old age.
I want to enjoy it all though.
There are no guarantees in life. It’s easy to get caught up living for the future, but what’s more important is to live for the now. Be in this present moment.
Of course we all have responsibilities, but truly where there is a will there is a way. Running after what you want often takes a lot of falling down because the path isn’t already carved out for you, and it can be hard. At times you will have to do things that won’t necessarily be your favorite but what matters is that you are headed in the right direction.
On this journey Joseph Campbell's work inspires me each day to keep going, and to never settle.
I will leave you with a quote for when you are ready to give up, when it all feels too hard, and you wonder if you are on the right path.
“Follow your bliss.
If you do follow your bliss,
you put yourself on a kind of track
that has been there all the while waiting for you,
and the life you ought to be living
is the one you are living.
When you can see that,
you begin to meet people
who are in the field of your bliss,
and they open the doors to you.
I say, follow your bliss and don't be afraid,
and doors will open
where you didn't know they were going to be.
If you follow your bliss,
doors will open for you that wouldn't have opened for anyone else.”
- Joseph Campbell
PS. If you want to get inspired watch the documentary Finding Joe.